I have always desired to know God. Even when my lifestyle was far from what He intended it to be, deep in my heart I was longing Him. But, you see, whether or not I acted upon that desire determined how much of His love I would genuinely experience.
His desire to know me was always there, I just couldn’t quite grasp it.
And here’s why:
I was dragging my cross, not carrying it. I was dragging it as if it was my burden to carry. I was loving Him halfheartedly. So, He reminded me why I was desperate for Him in the very first place. He reminded me of some of my darkest times where the ONLY glimpse of light and restoration that I had came from Him.
That completely wrecked me.
It’s not about how far I have come – rather WHO delivered me from it.
“No matter what changes God has wrought in you, never rely upon them, build only on a Person, the Lord Jesus Christ, and on the Spirit He gives.” – Oswald Chambers
The cross, a gracious gift of freedom, that is what we are clinging to – it should never be seen as an obligation. Truly knowing that, aligned my desire for Him and His steadfast love for me. No longer was I encountering what I call “secondhand love” from God. It wasn’t only through church, chapels, or youth group where I could experience His love.
Surrendering myself to the one I desired most, that’s all it took. His love is more than enough to sustain me.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
What we desire matters. It hijacks our hearts, the way we think, and how we live. If our desires are not solely fixed on Christ, then what is hijacking our hearts?
We are human and we fall – hard. But when you fall, fall at the feet of Jesus. Let His love cover you. Repent. Rest in forgiveness. Be changed.
This life is a journey worth fighting through, and we are not alone!
Nevertheless, the solid foundation of God stands, having this seal: “The Lord knows those who are His,” and, “Let everyone who names the name of Christ depart from iniquity.” 2 Timothy 2:19
We Would Love To Hear From You:
1. What was your favorite part about this post?
2. Do you feel like you are “dragging your cross”?
3. How can we be praying for you?