Hi my name is Chantel Munsey. I am 23 years old. And I am overcoming insecurity.
My life up to this point has been a pretty wild ride. When I was 9 years old I was diagnosed with stage-4 lung cancer and prescribed 3 weeks to live. Long story short I lost all of my hair and gained about 75 pounds while simultaneously fighting for my life.
In less than a year of being diagnosed and treated I was completely healed, but due to the circumstances I still felt like I was living the life of a patient; not a person. As if you aren’t already struggling as an adolescent to find identity—try being the fat, bald, terminally ill kid on the block. Constantly having people mistake me for a boy, and not being able to get my weight under control made things even worse.
I had no understanding of my value, and self worth was non-existent. For the next few years I continued to struggle with these insecurities, which led to extreme depression. I started to really second guess why God ever thought healing me was a good idea in the first place.
I tricked myself into believing that God made a mistake keeping me alive.
I started acting on the impulses of self-harm, until they became full on attempts of suicide. After hospitalization and therapy I bounced back. It was then that I found a brand new way to cope with insecurity. Theater.
I had no identity of my own, but I could put on any costume, any mask, and become whoever I wanted to be—even the people I could never be in real life. Thus all the world became my stage. I unintentionally started to believe that God’s love for me was contingent based on my performance….
Fast forward to bible school where I was surrounded by the word of God, fervently seeking after Him. I started to implement daily affirmations and scripture in my life.
By understanding who God was, it started to be clearer to me who I was.
I began to find my identity in Him. By identifying with him I started to adopt some of His characteristics—like kindness, grace, forgiveness, love. Doing those things helped me establish a holy confidence that I am able to walk in for the rest of my life.
I know who I am in Christ and I know He has a plan for me; a hope and a future. But it’s not all easy now…. it’s a constant battle.
For me, overcoming insecurity looks like small steps at a time.
First and foremost it looks like being in the word of God.
How will you ever know whom God says you are if you don’t read his word and surround yourself with his promises? Apart from God I don’t know who I am. Neither can you.
Second, daily affirmations and declarative statements are literally life changing.
Speak the life you want into existence. Say your affirmations OUT LOUD. Start thanking God for everything you have. Cultivate an attitude of gratitude in all things. Watch your joy set a blaze.
Lastly, get around people that will challenge you to be the best you that you can possibly be.
Challenge each other in love. Let’s be people that call out the beauty in others. Let’s remind people how amazing they are.
Recognizing someone else’s value doesn’t remove or reduce your value. In fact, I believe the ability to recognize the beauty in others makes you even more attractive.
Another recent step for me personally was taking off my false eyelashes. Although it might seem minor, it was huge for me. I had gotten to a place where I didn’t feel confident enough to leave the house without them on—out of fear that people would think less of me if they saw me without them. I wasn’t wearing false lashes… they were wearing me. I haven’t had false lashes on in about 2 months. It’s so unbelievably freeing to relearn that I am beautiful from the inside out. No eyelashes are going to change that.
I am Chantel Munsey.
I am 23 years old.
I find my identity in the God that created me.
I walk in the confidence knowing my crown has been paid for in full. All I have to do is put it on my head and wear it.
I am secure.
And… I’m ready to change the world.